Do coincidences happen to you a lot? Do you see similar number patterns over and over again? Do you just know something, but can’t explain why you know it? These are all things that happen to me more and more. They used to happen here and there, but now they are happening almost every day. I’ve been told I was a healer in past lives, I’ve been told I am different, that I have a different energy, I’ve been told I have a gift, but I’ve only ever sort of believed it. That’s changing. Even yesterday, I saw a post by someone I follow on instagram who lives in Australia. She posted about 2 of her friends visiting a crystal shop. I clicked on the link of the crystal shop as they are some of my favorite places just to see where it was. It’s in Encinitas, California. I thought, I bet my sister is meant to visit this store. She’s even thinking of moving to Encinitas so how amazing. I texted her a screenshot of the store and asked if she’d been. I told her I have a feeling she’s meant to go there. She responded that her and her friends had planned to go later that afternoon, along with whoa! I have no idea how I put this together. Why I clicked on that picture and looked into the shop, but I could feel it all. Feel that something was guiding me and that knowing this was the right path.
Intuition is a very weird and tricky thing. It’s something I still learn more about each and every day I choose to trust it. I have always had good gut instincts, just always knew whether things were good or bad. I did not always listen to these feelings however, but I am more and more. After my first trip to Sedona and my session of ‘getting in touch with your intuitive gifts’ I have been testing my intuition constantly. I work at keeping a clear mind so that I can receive my intuitive messages better. I’m currently doing a dry month and its amazing the channels that are open.
One way of ‘testing’ my intuition is with oracle cards. They are similar to tarot, but they come with a very user friendly book that makes it pretty straightforward to understand the meaning of the cards you pull. I have 3 decks. Each deck is slightly different or used for a different purpose. Each deck has 44 cards, a sacred number in the spiritual world. I was first introduced to oracle cards during my therapy session and I picked 2 cards out of 2 decks that I purchased later that night. After purchasing them I picked the same 2 cards. I took this as a sign. Not everyone believes in these signs. You are only able to see and accept that which you are willing to receive. You also have to be open to receiving or you won’t see anything.
Upon coming home from sedona I would pull cards every day. I kept a journal of the cards I pulled and meanings behind them. I didn’t understand why I pulled certain cards sometimes, them not making sense until much later on. I used to pull ‘Study’ a lot and I didn’t understand why as I was done with school and have no intention of going back. I now realize I have been studying for a while now. By reading, observing myself and others, staying open to receiving messages and observing what those messages are and interpreting what they mean. All of this is studying. I have been reading like crazy and feel I really am learning so much priceless information about myself and really connecting with how it all makes me feel.
My newest deck of oracle cards is the ‘Work Your Light’ cards from the author of “Light is the New Black” and “Rise Sister Rise” which I’ve posted about on this blog (see books). My first time pulling cards was a few weeks ago and it was a profound reading. I pulled the cards, read what they mean, and then just left the cards as they were for weeks. I have actually yet to put them back in the box as I feel I was still processing this reading. There are different ways you can pull cards, as described in the handy dandy guidebook that comes with the deck. I always pull 3 cards. I connect with the number 3 in many ways and that’s just what works for me. Rebecca describes this as “The Holy Trinity” the first card represents the head, second the body, and the third the heart.
My first card (head) was Imrama, meaning journey of the soul. A voyage on which we don’t know where we are going, but our soul knows the way. You are either being called on a soul journey or are already on one. You are being called to a place that is sacred to your soul. Spontaneous pilgrimages are in your future.
2nd card (body) was Fill Up Your Well. The guidebook states this is the most selfless thing you can do. Nothing can grow in barren lands. You are no good to anyone if you’re running on empty. The feminine is bountiful, fertile, and rich. Tend to your own well and watch as the amount you have to give multiplies. If your inner well isn’t full you will find yourself craving things from the outside world to fill it. This is our body’s instinctive way of reaching for the grounding and nurturing that we are not allowing ourselves.
3rd card (heart) was The crumbling. There is a shift happening right now, where anything inauthentic can no longer survive. Relationships, jobs, social structures, anything built on shaky ground is destined to tumble down. It’s happening to bring you back home to who you truly are (both individually and to society as a whole), so you can live a life that is in alignment with who you truly are. When you’re in the thick of it, it can feel like a personal attack from the Universe. Have faith because the difficult times will be your defining moments. You will be reborn in the fire.
You are being called to surrender. To stop trying to hold it all together. To loosen your grip. To let the crumbling occur. It may be difficult at first, but in the end, the sooner you let go, the sooner the rebirthing will occur. What are you trying to hold together? What are you doing your best to avoid? How are you trying to pretend everything is OK?
You have what it takes to allow what is falling away to tumble and fall. Once the tower has crumbled, you will be able to rebuild your home on solid ground with mighty foundations and a view that is so magnificent that it will take your breath away each new morn.
Each one of these cards resonates SO deeply with me, especially to the order in which I pulled them. I have said I am on a journey since before I started this blog. My journey is sacred and mine and I am so happy to be on it. I often times have no idea in which direction it will take me, but I am trusting it more and more as so far it’s been unbelievably worthwhile.
Self-care is something I never seemed to do before. I was living my life for others instead of for myself. This is something I enjoy doing so much, filling up my well. I do feel that the better I take care of myself, the more I am open to sharing myself and my story with others, or even just able to be there for others. That I am able to hold space for them much better as I don’t feel depleted. This is something we all need reminding of however.
The crumbling of all things inauthentic has been my mission statement so to speak. Living an authentic life everyday is my daily motto. Anything and everything that is not authentic I have simply tried to eliminate or it is simply something I do not have time or energy to give to it. This has not been easy. Peoples opinions as well as losing things and relationships that just simply don’t work anymore has been tough at times. I’ve also seen things shift and adapt in order to stick around which has been so beautiful to witness. As long as I am staying honest and true to myself, things seem to keep falling into place.
So well done universe! I’ve tested you and you keep passing the test! Again, all of this is only what you choose to believe. I used to be a huge skeptic of all of these things, but the proof is in the pudding and I simply can’t deny the things I feel and simply just know.
Don’t be afraid to work your light. To explore your intuition. It is the greatest gift I’ve been given, and it’s within each and every one of us. Not everyone will support or accept things that you already know, but these people simply aren’t your people. Don’t be afraid to find us, we’re out there and we will find you when you’re ready to see us!
Mindfully Authentic 