Anticipation

Anticipation

Anxiety

What’s going to happen?

When we finally reunite

Will it be like no time has passed?

Or will it be a stark contrast?

To what we once knew and meant to each other

To again getting to know one another

6 months its been

Rollercoaster ride of emotion

So many struggles within

I’m happy now after months and months of agony

You were running while I was diving deep

Deep in to what it all means

Our relationship, life, just so many things

As soon as I feel I have a grasp

Here you come, all of a sudden back

Uneasiness resides along with nervous vibes

So much has happened in both our lives

I’m scared that you’ll disappoint me

Like so many other times

But I refuse to let fear win

I’m so much stronger now

Time to use all I’ve learned within

It seems now you’ve taken a turn

Mind is open and willing to learn

As well as face your shit

I believe you can do this

Praying to God you don’t quit

Caught me off guard

Such a pleasant surprise

I missed those the most

So happy to see you realize

Things I’ve known but convinced myself otherwise

Validation is sweet

But I’d give it all up

For you not to have to go through this

As I know it can be rough

I wouldn’t change anything

Even though it felt torturous to go through

Being on the other side

Finally able to see how much I grew

Growth is a funny thing

You can’t see it while discovering

But when you finally see, It’s so inspiring

A truly beautiful thing

Anticipation and anxiety

In this moment have the best of me

But I’m fighting indefinitely

As I won’t let them define me