Looking back on the man you once were
So much of what I know is now a blur
For you’ve become someone I don’t recognize
Maybe you don’t even realize
The man I fell for had so much to give
His insight and creativity so provocative
For your brain I miss the most
In such a unique host
The conversations we’d have about nothing and everything at the same time
No question our future was a hill together we’d climb
For at the top we’d look down and see how far we’d come
Nothing we couldn’t conquer in time
But then everything shifted
You grew further addicted
Not willing to own it
Projection you gifted
I felt crazy for thinking it
There’s no way this is it!
Unable to accept or believe it
I fought it and fought it
A part of me will forever be fighting
As a part of me will forever be missing
Without you in my life
It’s been the hardest lesson to learn
You don’t always get what you yearn
Even if everything in you tells you it’s right
Sometimes life has a way of showing you otherwise
How did we get here?
Just a year ago we were stronger than ever!
You looked at me and said “babe, I can’t love you until you love yourself”
Those words changed my life forever
So that’s exactly what I did
I figured that out
Now I love myself without a doubt
For that alone I am forever grateful
But babe, it’s your turn
To love yourself instead of being hateful
You deserve to be happy and free
The first step is to get clean
But you are the only one that can decide
When for you is the right time
Until then I will simply step aside
Praying for you, that hill you will climb
Knowing you’re never alone, I’m always here willing to stand by your side
Mindfully Authentic 