Fighting the Battle

I feel crazy for feeling the way I did

Second guessing all that happened

Was what I felt invalid?

Then I think there’s no way you could’ve faked that

The look in your eyes, deep connection we had

We were together, like it or not

Run from it you have, left me and forgot

Maybe it’s just as painful for you

Remembering all that you do

So easier to run and forget

Than face it head on and acknowledge it

Your choices have hurt me more than I’d like

It’s time I stop putting up this fight

Letting you go once and for all

For that’s what you’ve shown me you want after all

Your actions have proven again and again

You no longer care, maybe you never did

This is my struggle, all the unknown

But you won’t talk to me and reap what you’ve sewn

My heart is shattered from the disappointments

Trying so hard to forgive

And remember the positive

You are so sick

Yet no one sees

How bad the hooks are in you

How you’re falling to your knees

For you are the one who is suffering

As much as it hurts, I’ve set myself free

But you my dear have it tougher

Than I could ever dream

You have yet to accept it

That you are an addict

Can’t imagine how hard it is

No wonder you’re fighting it

The future is hard when you look too far ahead

But if you keep running from it

I fear you’ll be dead

For your addiction will win unless you put up a fight

Please, please, please just try

I can not engage with you anymore

For all it does is hurt me more

This battle is yours and until you decide

I must go on living my life, all the while praying you fight

Fight this battle

For I know you can win

At the very least let the fight begin

You are so much stronger than you even know

I understand giving up is easier than growth

I am powerless over you and your fight

Just know I’m praying you succeed with all of my might